*SIGH*

YES IN CAPITAL LETTERS.

I'M BORED, EXTREMELY BORED. AT A POINT YOU CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE.
I'M TIRED, EXAUSTED.
I'M ANNOYED, PISSED OFF.
I FEEL LIKE CRYING UNTIL MY BODY IS DRYED OUT.  BUT MY EYES ARE STILL DRY.  AND I FEEL THEY WILL REMAIN FOREVER.
I feel so fucking empty... Everything is just so boring that's it's... overwhelming ? How can those opposite things could be this close ? I feel like it's taking over me... And I'm sad...
I don't even feel like doing anything... I just wanna sleep and never get up again... I don't wanna die, I just want to sleep... Sleep forever... Or just awake when the world will be more interresting... Will ever such a thing happen ?
Why is everyone so fucking stupid ? So fucking boring ?
How is it possible to be happy in such a world ?
And again I feel like hating everyone...

There's no solution to this, I just have to accept it the way it is... I can't change the whole world.  No one can.


I just wanna yell a fucking "FUCK YOU" to the world and to life itself.

FUCK YOU.  Just fucking fuck you, tabarnak !

Life is a bitch.  A fucking whore.  And I mean it.  From the bottom of my heart.  Fuck. You.

I should see a doctor, don't you think ? At least so I can be sure of what is going on, in my head...

Borderline and Schizoid Personality Disorder seems to be the closest to the reality.... But I'm not a psychologist or a psychiatric doctor...

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